Sunday, December 30, 2018

2053-2060

2053. they had to leave a little early. a much needed blessing in disguise

2054. gigantic mason jars filled with lemons, cucumbers, ginger and water.

2055. this very blog, a reminder to give thanks continually, counting gifts, combating entitlement and discontent with a spiritual act of thanksgiving

2056. good old fashioned heart to hearts on the old fashioned phone. a reminder that i matter to her and she matters to me

2056. lots and lots of sister and mom and cousin time this season. it's fun to be home for Christmas.

2057. tickets have been purchased for the long awaited United Arab Emirates! i can not wait!

2058. thankful for a renewed united front concerning the budget. we are on the same page, both have a desire to save and refrain together, and build, invest, plan, and dream about the future. together. 

2059. thankful and relieved the Christmas eve service went well, by God's grace and mercy. 

2060. news of new life brewing inside a womb. overflowing with joy for this new mom. 


Monday, March 26, 2018

2046-2052

2046. unplugged time. an examination of the heart, open handed and a softness towards correction. i am willing. and thankful to learn in the process.

2047. baby cheeks, baby smiles, baby giggles. a joyful baby boy who is healthy and strong.

2048. a few months a way from brand new contacts and glasses! thankful for a working eye.

2049. rhythm and grace. 

2050. a steadfast husband. he is truly the kindest, most gentlest, most compassionate man. brimming with humility. thoughtfulness. so unselfish. i can not, will not, get over it. undeserved.

2051. soft talks with mother in law that only benefit, rather than slide us further backwards. encouraged more so than i have been in a long time.

2052. tiny demitasse cups and teeny tiny spoons to match.

Friday, March 23, 2018

2043 - 2045

2043  thursday night small group. shared hunger to know God's words and to pursue Him together.  grace for my weaknesses, genuine concern for one another's burdens and the ability to celebrate together

2044  a healthy work environment with people who seek humility and exude joy. grateful for all of the laughter and side heart-conversations

2045  admiration for a life and heart with so much integrity. assertive + vulnerable + kind, patient + wise + strong. i'm humbled that i can have this time to learn with wide-eyes that God has reserved those like-minded people, and they're worth waiting for.

Thursday, October 26, 2017

2036-2042

2036. vicks kleenex!!! i could inhale them all day every day. who invented these?! 

2037. eucalyptus, eucalyptus, eucalyptus! 

2038. thursday mornings. we trickle in, we trickle out. we sip hot beverages and hearts spill out. the good. the hard. no reason to hold back. it is a safe place.

2039. sunshine today. i love rainy days too, but thankful to experience both..

2040. coming home to a clean house, lovingly done so by my  husband. thoughtful, serving, and a sweet i'm sorry for the hurt i caused heard loud and clear..

2041. new seasons! Nathan's acceptance into the Masters Program, baby's due date, winter coming, wedding season coming to a close..

2042. thoughtful unexpected gifts from others for no reason

Tuesday, October 24, 2017

2028-2035

2028. beginning to see the fruits of this new purposeful lifestyle of slowing down, de throning busyness, and learning to say no. it has yielded peace, rest, quiet time with jesus, and quality time with my family as well as a renewed passion to care for my home well. 

2029. a gorgeous fall day for family pictures. rolling green hills, soft warm weather, and plush autumn colors vibrantly shining. countryside, untouched. a perfect gift. 

2030. travel is used for quality time for our family. thankful that it brings us close and snug, in the car, on the road, listening to podcasts, eating packed lunches, laughter, good conversations, and exploring and adventuring together. 

2031. fresh eucalyptus bringing bits of life to my table, tied in a bunch in my shower, opening up my passageways and the steamy scent is heavenly. little wonderful gifts. 

2032. genuine consistent friendships that don't go anywhere no matter the circumstance. 

2033.  a beautiful brand new hand made robe, turquoise and giant floating florals, i'd been looking around for the perfect one for my hospital stay and post birth, and a friend generously surprised and gifted me with the perfect one!! a tiny desire of my heart that i hadn't even spoke to anyone about, and yet God knew and it felt like such a personal kind gift.

2034. the ability to smell. 

2035. God, You are so good and faithful. thank you for seeing me, knowing me, and being such a gentle Shepherd. thank you for your unconditional love, your loving kindness, and hiding me under your wings. You are my Shelter, my Tower, my Shield. i love You so much. 

Tuesday, October 17, 2017

2020-2027

2020. after a disheartening talk cut short, a new evening rolls in with second chances and upbeat spirits. three children who chose to change sour attitudes, eat all their dinner with determination [eating fresh farm vegetables and sausage is pretty tough stuff in the kid world], and having plenty of time to play before bed..so thankful and proud of them for turning the night around with good fruits of the spirit

2021. husband arriving home late with gifts: a new plant pet, english toffee, french butter, and words of missing me when he's not with me. perhaps small, but speaks volumes to me. much needed and appreciated.

2022. friends who share burdens. feel the safety of pouring out guts and weaknesses, and equally eager to carry the weight of mine as well..

2023. the ability to say no is empowering. and a gift. i never want to take it for granted.

2024. yet again, the gift of keeping up with a clean kitchen. daily act of worship

2025. a generous joyful friend offering her home and laundry room while she's gone right at a time that mine is broken and trekking to the laundromat feels overwhelming. generous people always teach me to be more generous. 

2026. a beautiful bassinet, again borrowed from a generous friend, but perfect for this season for our new baby boy. an answer to prayer really. 

2027. slowly but surely, his little nursery is coming..can't wait to meet this littlest gift. 9 weeks left! 

Tuesday, October 10, 2017

2011-2019

2011. peppermint tea, the rich aromatics before the first sip, and the calm it brings to my stomach 

2012. fettuccine alfredo, stir fried vegetables, grilled chicken, bread, whipped butter, ginger beer-a delicious soul meal made by many hands with love 

2013. ride on the grand river, puttering along, taking in the colors, the quiet ripples of the water, enjoying time with family and friends 

2014.  keeping up with cleaning the kitchen. every day. [enjoying the gift for now..who knows how long it will last]

2015. helpful hands that belong to my children. 

2016. consistent faithful long term friendships

2017. thankful for a counselor that continues to speak gospel to me, who coaches and encourages, who helps me navigate and equip me for the outside world, who teaches me how to have boundaries, how to keep depression in check, and genuinely cares about me. 

2018. speaking of depression, thank you Father for pulling me away from the dark place and quietly consistency drawing me into the light..all glory to You God. you sustain and uphold and you are ever present. 

2019. belly bands and brand new kicks that provide amazing support to my tired heavy body.