Wednesday, May 17, 2017

1985-1993

1985. sitting on the floor, brown hands upon brown hands, in prayer together.

1986. expressed love and affection spoken through words. out loud. 

1987. friends who understand.

1988. surprise visit from mom. steady. faithful. gentle.

1989. cold milk spilled over raisin bran. extra sugar. 

1990. no bleeding so far. good sign.

1991. a peaceful joyful mother's day. 

1992. turning in my assignment on time. 

1993. the ability to even count gifts amidst the dry season. there are always gifts to be found. always.

Monday, May 1, 2017

1977-1984

1977. positive pregnancy test. i usually fail most tests. it's nice to pass once in a while

1978. a consistent, steadfast, God centered, peaceful marriage. By His grace, my marriage is a safe, joyful place, and i am so thankful that God cloaks it in His generous mercy and love. 

1979. thankful my son is thriving once again, stepping out of a hard spot of anxiety, fear, and sadness. watching the smart, bright, inquisitive, eager to learn boy emerge back out without losing his thoughtfulness or tenderness..Lord, continue to keep Your protective and kind hand on him..

1980. a season where after so long of being poured into, blessed beyond measure, plenty or learning and growing time, to now take it and pour back out. i have been given much. a joy to give in return. nothing of my own ability, but Christ in me. 

1981. reconciliation.restoration.a healthy Godly love emerging in my two friends. for this we prayed. and He has answered.graciously. generously 

1982. His provision. He meets our needs. He takes care of us. Every good gift is from Him alone. 

1983. releasing. the unfolding of strong grips on things that don't belong clinging in my hands. the ability to hold things loosely. 

1984. my three babies. i love them so much. i love being with them. i love being close to them. they bring me delight and joy. i learn so much through the gift of being their mother.