2061. the healing relationship with my oldest son. this past month has been hard and stretching with dad gone a lot, but ben and i have worked really well together to keep the house sane. he has been my right hand, helping with out being asking, tending to children and pouring cereal and making sure the baby doesn't spray himself with pepper spray. he has been verbally encouraging and gentle, affirming me as mom and he must have told me he loved me 1000 times un solicited. it is making my heart soar because we had a hard season between the two of us clashing, butting heads, fighting for authority and the upper hand. and here, now, God has been gracious and given us both eyes to see and serve one another. thank you so much God. i cannot praise You enough. i love my son and you have given me some more time with him as the tender, thoughtful, purposeful son i know. i don't know if it will always be this way, but for now i am so so thankful.
2062. with nate being gone a ton, [Philippines, jury duty, unveil workshop], i have had to rely on the kindness and helpfulness of others, sometimes even strangers. at the mall i got stuck in the mucky heavy snow, my wheels spinning. a young mom got out of her car and singlehandedly pushed me out.
i would still be sitting there if it were't for her. friends offered to bring groceries. another sent a hot pizza anonymously to our doorstep when we were snowed in. a babysitter came so i could at least get one night out with a friend, that meant a lot. my dear neighbor Fritz shoveled me out of my driveway after the snow blowers came and boxed me in. he did that many times as the snow fell. i am just floored at these acts of kindness, acts of selflessness, a reminder that i am seen by the Father and He cares about me.
2063. heat. power. electricity. these should not be taken for granted as we've seen this past week or so how quickly they can be taken away! hot water is always a gift.
2064. a husband who recognizes, acknowledges, and calls out appreciation and sacrifice in me, when i did not ask or look for it, he encourages, uplifts, and is generous with words of affirmation. gifts upon gifts.
2065. a small flame of motivation to keep on with this long weightless journey, to keep up the work, and practice self control and discipline.
